Changes

So, today Charlie and I went to the Greyhound station with my mom, little brother, and nephew. Charlie went off to Job Corps and I spent the day with my parents. I did pretty well, I think, because I didn't cry very much until I got home. I completely lost it right after I walked upstairs and it hit me that I am gonna have to go to bed alone =( Ever since getting married there hasn't been anything I've disliked more than going to bed alone..but I know I'll be ok. I just need a little time to adjust.

I'm not sure when it'll happen, but I'm going to be moving in with my parents until Charlie is done with Job Corps. It's going to be a big change, I'll be closer to school but farther than work.

This isn't going to be easy. I'm going to cry a lot, I'll want him to come home, he'll want to come home, and we're both going to have to do things that we don't want to do. But I know we can definitely get through it. He'll have me and our families and friends supporting him and I'll have the families and friends here with me. But right now...I don't want to go to sleep because I know that I'll wake up and I won't see him...(sorry about the depressing end to this post. I'm not feeling super fantastic right now)